Statement .

I'm home now

sittn still for a while

i wanna turn back to the swimming pools and swings at night

but, until then ill send those text that say

GoodMorning .. GoodNight

and every day i awake i think of you

then I'm right back on my life and how the pieces go together

everyday,

questions like what imma eat next

from the outside lookin in you’d say I'm “doin it big”

but .. from those nosebleed seats

you honestly couldn't tell exactly what i was doin ..

correct .?

and if you could see why is everybody still asking questions regarding me ?

did you not just see it ?

you miss that part?

but wait .. the plot thickens

if you didn't see the movie how do you answer questions?

think about it :)

Soliloquy

He aint mine so do i trip?
He aint mine therefor i dont have the right..
He aint mine so what do i do?
He aint mine so it really dont matter..
He aint mine and i aint his so can i do what i please?
He aint mine so i guess im free to do me..
He aint mine so why get mad?
He aint mine so he wont either..
Right.?
He aint mine but asks questions like he is.
He aint mine but i care.
I aint his but he says he does
I aint his but we talk more than me and most of my guy friends
I aint his but he says.. _ _ _
He aint mine and i do the same..

-So now that we have this understanding im not his and hes not mine but we care for eachother..
are we just friends?
are we more?
i guess you can say we use to be..
but clearly not anymore..
so, how am i posta feel?
ive felt this way before ..
and i had to wait, and wait , and now..
hes no longer in my life.. in that way n e more
still care hes homeboy n that wont change
we've gone our ways && thas just what it is

now back to he and i
will we only be friends?
should i ask?
should i already know?
do i look forward?
or do i look back,
walk away and say thanks for the ride..
i guess as of now just friends..
always && forever?
or just friends for forever?
&& not always,
maybe eventually more..
or less..
or none..?


-but im just venting-
&& ill stop here.

RaceCar

Red? But I prefer black

Inside leather, outside wet

In and out of lanes, real real fast

Waist not time, peddle to the metal

The sound alone, makes my body jerk

Around the track, and yet again

I inhale deep, as I feel myself lose my cool

Your always safe, and if you promise,

next time,

in your fast car,

I'd love to

RIDE

MidLife

As i sit and stare out of the window of this airplane

I reflect and think of all the ish happening now in my life

I mean it seems as if im going through a mid life at the age of 18

And I really don’t know what n e of this means

But hopefully I learn more than many things

Can’t wait to see what my future life brings

But for now ill use my past for the ability to see all things

I can get all the help in the world if only I open my eyes , my mind , and my mouth

My eyes to see

My mind to think and believe, and

My mouth to speak into existence all these things

As for those not able to feel me

Just hear me out , all this is ; is my mind speaking for my mouth

I love the person I am and for the most part the life I live

Yet, there is always grass greener and there is always the skys clearer

But there is never another life like the one I lead nor is there another person like me.

LeftRight .

something i just don’t understand, why does ish always go left.. instead of right

left.. wrong turn i shouldve turned

right..

left.. is the way i turned my head and it was love at first sight.. i shouldve looked

right..

left.. me is what you did and i listened to you, when i knew she was

right..

left.. is what i shouldve done with him buh he was

right..

left.. is the way ish turns when it should be

right..

left.. is the way we turn when we dont wanna hear whats

right..

left..

right...

right..

left..

either way we turn ..

no matter what mistakes we make..

at the end of the day..

believe it or not ..

it was supposed to be this way

<3>

TheTwo

About the two you’d be confused

The word friend is what is used

But the feelings felt & choices made

You’d never guess at the end of the day

Quotes and sayings being exchanged

“I'm glad somewhere someone truly cares”

&& “I don’t know but we shall see I know I’m not gonna want to leave”

About the two you’d be confused

But its a long story and part of it I don’t mind telling you

‘She’ came, ‘she’ saw, and ‘she’ conquered

Only being that he wasn’t able to talk to ‘her’

And at the end of the day lets just say ‘she’ gets what ‘she’ deserves

Yet the type of pain ‘she’ created will continue to live forever on

&& In her mind she’s conquered all

Yet in the end we all know who won

Simply because karma is cold

&& from that point on the two together simply throw two middle fingers up

Which simply equals four times over ..

Monday, Nov. 15,2010

TheTwo

No.1

J

Dreams

Mixed messages and lost dreams is all this life style seems to bring

Mixed messages and lost dreams is why I wear the necklaces representing the lost parts of me

Mixed messages and lost dreams is slowly and sadly becoming a part of me

Mixed messages and lost dreams is all that seems to bother me

Mixed messages and lost dreams is beginning to seem to want death from me

Mixed messages and lost dreams is left but yes right yes left yet only right

Mixed messages and lost dreams is the only thing to stay constant to me

Mixed messages and lost dreams is the definition to the antonyms synonyms of the defined word

Mixed messages and lost dreams is all this life of mine wanting death from the necklaces worn, bothering me[s] synonmys antonyms and defining the only part left of me when these mixed messages become..

My lost dreams

Saturday, Nov.13, 2010

Dreams

No.1

J